• posted on 12-10-2024 in irl

Sup fam, i've been a lil mia over the past month. Busy with holiday stuff, irl tings and making art. Been tinking about posting/writing poetry too. Not weird pretentious stuff but idk... something...
We had a big pump in crypto since i wrote about alt coins and as of right now its a lil crash retrace happening. Kinda made me wanna check in and ramble a lil. Had to write a sequel to that original post, posted here, yesterday.
Me working on some cool stuff for the site. Big and small updates on the server side. More tracks for the music player, new categories for posts etc etc. Been doing the webmaster thing for over ten years and its funny to see that people still automate scripts to penetrate wordpress websites. Reviewing the server logs is still so fun all these years later. I forgot what the control felt like in contrast to the era of apps we are in currently. You can't see shit on social media, fk their 'premium dashboard analytics' its just not the same as true server logs on your own site.

Like... hey you, trying to hack a non-existent login form or plugin... This site was not built with wordpress lol.

no cms, database, wix or similar...

The new 'perma' web stuff is cool, i just forget to use it outside nft stuff tbh. Vps and vanillia ips if it came to it by choice tho. Its weird how we have so many wallet/pocket watchers in crypto yet people act like its private and secure... Literally feds in every gc. i've seen some talking about really finding people, like hmmm that would mean... fed... And our favorite artists, devs or homies will pander to them and let them into each and every gc... its cooked fam...
i rather be banned personally. A few of those characters used to make me laugh calling other people feds all day on the timeline. I guess its cause many of those puppets are watched all day, its how they earn their spots, so they have to act a certain way in front of their owners lol.
Anyways, i also had the idea to start posting the stuff from back when it was cool to be pro pew pew. some lore for frens, years ago a real warlord contacted me via email about that life. private email too not a free thingy. i no reply because im no dat guy. however my old site had that much street cred... even got threaten with a lawsuit once, was something, about dat life... Posts from those days were a lil different, not really social media friendly. Sales and stuff typically happened via forums, and tinking now how controlled even that era was. Similar echo chamber feeling; i guess thats just social sites in general no matter the niche.

i was on a fresh twitter account the other day, albeit a few years old, i saw nothing but posts about the current wars going on... and porn [lol]... That algo is algo'ing, right? on a pre-elon account with no posts in years? i got flooded with war and porn, on twitter. it got weird when i scrolled more and saw a topless midget... ngl i was pretty confused until it registered in my brain that she was/is a little person and yea she sells content on twitter by proxy [lol]. After her, it was a 57 year flashing her box and links. And that was enough for me, logged out of that account and haven't missed the app or my og account. Stepping out of your bubble is crazy sometimes, like from the outside looking in perspective. Realizing how lame it all is, even years later. I still miss some frens tho, and if you're reading, much love, always n forever.
2025 looks promising for our bags. i see a few metas completely fading away, won't say but just an outsider perspective. me thinking more traditional on chain art/assets will be a thing at some point too. Logic is, people may get tired of the ai art meta. Don't get me wrong we all use it somewhere but lately the mint prices across numerous chains for ai art is pretty high. Art buyers may just flip or revert back into things that have a little more effort put into the creation process and what not. Who knows tho, markets are weird despite logical forcasts. nfa but keep an eye on the water chains, aptos, sui, and sei. and the old faithfuls ripple and stellar. and you already know imma og unicornio $uwu tard tehe.

irl i may put more effort into not being so autistic. its hard as you may know but getting older forces us out of comfort zones. life scwary but what can you do, hide? don't let your mental affliction[s] keep you from experiencing life anon. wearing shades helps with the eye contact thing, not really indoors or depending on your job tho lol. But does help i find. my tism resonates with tobacco so a smoke in shades for that timeless alpha aura aesthetic type shid [lol] but i don't recommend anything habit forming to anyone especially auty fam. At some point i want to quit but idk, coffee and smokes seem to help like addys/pills help others out there. i guess do you as i will too, but yea we all try and if it helps you function go for it just avoid harming others etc etc.
More art and literature overall are helping with focusing on knocking out tasks and routines daily. a good nightcore or breakcore playlist is the vibe lately while making stuff. i kinda forgot about being into the older wave of nightcore years ago, hearing a few songs took me back and was like ayooo dis muh shit. Dnb is a blessing and i also forgot about the sub genres from the 90s. hearing some old mix took me back to the early ps1 and n64 ost's. and bros its crazy how we forget about things so close to our hearts. and bam, all it takes is a trigger to resurect a memory or link to the past. shit that make ya tear up or feel a way....

being a crypto bro is similar to the self employed thing im finding. i did the independent contractor grind for years as a dev but its not healthy for structure or being stable. you may get lucky long term with the right gig[s] or go full adhd and start to neglect important life stuff. i guess i was destined to being chronically online lol, but i've done ok over the years. still waiting for the big one or two but can't complain, helped as many people as i could along the way. i always seemed to make or take less and just help whomever i could.
definitely going to post stuff to the site as i go. so many ideas on and off canvas. between you and me anon, i have prototype stuff from ten years ago that i may make handles for. i'll post later when ready to roll tho. Being separated from the tribe on the timeline is good in a way lowkey. keeps me from copying aesthetics unintentionally. artism sometimes does that thing where you mimic without realizing then its like oh... dam... lol. thats one reason i didn't grift my frens with a nft project that looks like anyone elses; it just never felt right, idk. for art and literature, or even engineering, i like to find a 'thing' instead of riding peoples wave. i spent more time and money as a buyer this past year, would have been easier to copy pasta and roll wif it as a scammer seller/dev lol.

recently i kinda figured out that things were a rug among people that i thought were actually cool. not sure how to feel about it but like everything else we move on. crypto and web grinding has a lot of growing pains, even for seasoned vets. when people said no one is your fren in web 3 i didn't believe it and still don't despite what i've been through. prob just autism but i choose to believe that at least a few of my mutuals actually liked me lol.
just a quick update tho, anon. again much love, more posts/pages/thingys on site suwun. thank u for weadin.